Darkness

Tracks

1. 1

   O Negative

   5:54
   Lyrics

   A mistake that patience can't change a revenge that for years hasn't sated your rage no one leads me astray as beautifully as you no one sins as precisely as I do The hatred in your eyes doesn't lessen my desire and my heart, the mute witness, won't clear me either even the lie detector can't help me my feeling won't cross from my heart to my pupils This border that doesn't understand my need to leave a sticky craving for stillness that won't leave me a waiting no savior ever answers secrets of yours that not even stone would keep The indescribable loneliness of your O negative blood the mournful send-off of your secret agents the caution of crossing the swamp of your longing giving up everything in your logic of war The volcano of my delusion never rests a deserted height no eagle can bear a terrifying turbulence I once read about in a book for weeks I stayed asleep on the surface waves

2. 2

   Death Angel

   4:48
   Lyrics

   Come, gently pull me out of the pit above this body Take me up, take me where nothing stays Even for just a moment, take me somewhere, to a world where everything is an image, a dream, or just a supposition Come quietly, so no one knows Tempt me with a look that's endlessly cruel Come close, so no one sees Afflict me with a feeling that's endlessly sad Just a supposition, not a world where clocks have taken over and want batteries on top of it Just yesterday quantum said the clocks are watching us and until you look at them they won't even move all they want is a watcher

3. 3

   Haze to Clarity

   5:03
   Lyrics

   Let me say it with the skin of my face say it to my cream-colored pillow with the Morse code of my pupils tell of the box of my head tell of the core of my grief say it in my body's tongue to the reflection of my face say it on my wet glass say it to my wet glass Let me go on the wings of the soul go to the border of cloud and mountain go by the winding way go from haze to clarity Move somewhere far away, go, lose you design a city and stretch it to your embrace go into a long sleep, go with a cosmic mind go with just one wish to the coral plain go and turn a plain cave into somewhere wonderful clean my beautiful lies every morning cover a stone behind a waterfall with weeds build a soft bed and imagine you beside me

4. 4

   There Is Nothing

   4:32
   Lyrics

   There's nothing I want to say, nowhere I want to go No one I want to come, I'm ready to leave Nothing I want to touch, no taste I want to taste No smell I want to smell, no pain I want to bear Nowhere I want to stay, no border to cross No right I want to claim, no share of being to take No road I haven't walked, no color I haven't seen No desire to be the winner, no way I haven't been No word I want to hear, no secret I want to know Nothing to think about, enough, I don't want to stay anymore No longing to arrive, nothing to have No feeling left to feel, no wish to plant There's nothing to gain, nothing I want to lose Nothing I want to crush, nothing to build again No strength for this captivity, no patience of the old-age kind No point to start from, no place where you get to end

5. 5

   Free Spirit

   5:18
   Lyrics

   One cold night in the street you look at your hands you find yourself facing two eyes with your look you stir up a mysterious feeling your whole being thrills, but you deny it My love, every day you're changing, form to form swayed by every breeze and every storm I'm the one who drew you this way I mended your wounded heart in my arms the one who operated on the wounds of your soul who designed your thoughts night and day without rest I kept my heart busy with your simple sentences and with difficulty I got used to your simple existence I freed you from the need for empty wishes I sent you off into the real world The neutral feeling in your free spirit is all you still remember of me Inside me I feel an imaginary welling up moments, from afar, when you're restless a beautiful enemy, made from my own essence by forgetting you I faded out of myself You drifted away from me and I grew restless I endured the days, the nights I couldn't sleep I need a little time to go cold on you to become like the world that crushed me

6. 6

   What About Me

   5:02
   Lyrics

   I know your time has come, so what about my time I know your feet are tired, what about my feet I get it, your eyes are sad, what about my eyes I see you're sad, but what about my sorrows I know you're tired, but what about my exhaustion You have to live, but what about my life Don't move, this is exactly where you're supposed to be Don't choke up, that's exactly the moment you have to get up Don't breathe, right now everyone wants air from you Don't blink, here all anyone wants from you is your gaze You did the waiting, so what about my patience I get it, you're compelled, but what about what compels me I know this is just who you are, so what about who I am And what becomes of that self of yours that turned into me I know this was your wish, what about my wish I get it, this is what you deserve, so what about my share So what about my lifetime, I know for you it's too soon So what about my share, so what about my share I see your road has split away, so what about my road The moonlight came back to your night, so what about my moon I know your season has come, so what about my season I get it, my green has passed, so what about my generation

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   Vertical Cemetery

   4:39
   Lyrics

   My groundless dread of odd-numbered days the software of emotion, the codes of pleasure and pain the grueling job of keeping you entertained the soul-crushing exhaustion of working in your mine A vertical cemetery of ordinary living people billions of years for a single cell to mature the sad pride of being alone at altitude unloading a sob in the airplane toilet My head over the gates of cities, from Shushtar to your Balkh a victim of grasping your bitter philosophy The mysterious extinction of blue whales nature's offer of an acquired death again I'm suspended in the wrong centuries from primitive man to the turbines of sin This level of pain for the thin skin of a soul to grow old in a single day of a Noah's lifetime

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   The Black Rose

   5:40
   Lyrics

   The corpse of a black rose is all I have of you my sad afternoons when I loathe being alone and brief delusions that you're sitting beside me I'm fog close to the ground, a river close to the waterfall Memory tissue in the brain, forced memories life beneath hell, the only choice you've got a blanket whose fibers smell of sleeping with you the rim of a glass of water that has tasted your lips Water and sunlight and lullabies, everything I gave you Black rose close to me, I'm a cloud at the mercy of the wind I planted your body in a cleft in my skin I kept your soul in my veins along with my blood Naked black rose in the fifth season of the cold year two identities in one body, meaning a painful coexistence the feeling of being kept from you between the two poles of a game our nightly meetings in parallel lives I'm the fruit of the tree of illusion, my flawless black rose in the middle of a still autumn, a little leaf, dancing I'm an unreached height, as high as my drunkenness I'm snow riding the storm, a piece of what lies beyond being

9. 9

   Strike

   6:38
   Lyrics

   By the time I come to, I've been on the bed for hours around me, pure silence, my head is full of noise I don't move, I'm so clenched the air dark and cold, my eyes wide open The moment of growing a little, from the inside turning into a wolf as the moon fills out my room is full of the silence of the lambs my chest is a forest of the sad roar of saws This state, for me, means protest far from you, someone going extinct Me, and on the table, that means choice food in the trash means a strike these, for me, mean insults far from you, someone expiring Shards of glass beside the bed and the cover of a book, a broken phone shards of glass and the cover of a book a broken phone beside the bed these, for me, mean criticism far from you, someone freezing over

10. 10

    Good Happening

    6:21
    Lyrics

    When, miles away from me, you feel the longing my heart has been cold for days from this symmetrical love When, hours from now, the lonely days are yours my mind has given up on the recurring delusions When every one of your cells wants a safe embrace when all your damned memories start to talk When you were leaving me, the lights of the sea's lighthouses died the termites of fantasy ate the lifeboat the sea angels gave me over to the waves the monstrous waves of terror took me to the edge of death When every regret adds you to death when all the philosophical sorrows drive you crazy the sorrows that close in on you however much you laugh breaths slowly get used to the smell of a corpse When you want to talk to the walls and you can't when there's nothing in your windpipe but a chronic lump When everything around you is so good you're sick of it you see you've grown old waiting for a good happening When you're empty and aching inside you drag your tear-filled eyes across cold windowpanes When you tear your whole being apart with the need for a kiss you take refuge in photos to be kissed When I'm not there for your soul to stay warm under my skin

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    What Does It Mean

    4:00
    Lyrics

    Suddenly you've thrown off the veil, what does it mean? Drunk, you've galloped out of the house, what does it mean? Your locks in the hand of the breeze, your ear at the rival's command, you've made your peace with everyone like this, what does it mean? You're the king of the beautiful and have become the beggars' desire, you haven't known the worth of this rank, what does it mean? Wasn't it you who first put the tip of your tress in my hand? And again you've thrown me off my feet, what does it mean? Your locks in the hand of the breeze, your ear at the rival's command, you've made your peace with everyone like this, what does it mean? Your words told the secret of your mouth, your waist the secret of the middle, and from that waist you've drawn a blade on us, what does it mean? Your locks in the hand of the breeze, your ear at the rival's command, you've made your peace with everyone like this, what does it mean? Everyone is busy with some throw of the dice of your love, and in the end you've played crooked with them all, what does it mean? Poem: Hafez

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    Xanax

    4:30
    Lyrics

    God, this recurring image of your face in my sleep my half-open eyelids filled with water again the details of your face being sent to memory an analyst called the mind that's incapable of understanding love the brain's decision to react to the memory through the nerves that lead to the virgin heart the release of pain-triggering hormones into my blood through the arteries the message of pain reaches every part of me The evil doctor's irrelevant, money-making bullshit the pink, routine prescription of that man in white an emotional disaster, by Murphy's laws a chemical that he recommends Without a second thought, at the shelf, after the pink pills a chemical product, an industrial derivative swallowing the pink ones to conquer comfort to break through the security walls to escape my own self that's addicted to you absorbed through the stomach wall, into the damned blood And the pink flakes storm the brain and quietly bury you, the corpses of cursed memories my mind gives up its endless confirming and refuting and weightlessness eases the pulse's restlessness a little I set foot on the shore, outside the cage doors and the lump in my throat sinks a little lower down the windpipe

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    Nothing Will Get Better

    5:15
    Lyrics

    When someone like you leaves, someone like me dies someone like God suddenly takes back everything he gave The sky gets light, so why is your heart still night and your life in your throat, every day closer to your lips You hate what you believe, a craving for death in your head you want to be over, like your torn-up wishes No one like you is coming to warm this cold body but every day I'm more alive, so I feel the pain more You're the piece of my heart that blood runs through take you from me and my peace goes with you You're the corners of the lips that can laugh with you take you from me and my feelings show No one like you is coming and nothing will get better hard days go by, the root still remains No one takes your place, nothing gets any calmer because a wild feeling says nothing will get better Until an angel arrives after long years and the corners of your lips pull apart, open in a laugh Look, the sun is still warm, its light no less at all but when you really think about it, nothing, nothing has gotten better You're the relief of a pain that's been with me for years take you from me and it tears out my foundations You're the part of my eye that can only sleep with you take you from me and it won't blink till morning

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    Fascinating Flower

    4:58
    Lyrics

    Fascinating red flower of my garden, where is the scent of your petals My love, say something, set a heart on fire, fix your eyes on weary me As the cold night breeze blows from your stem onto my face I'm still crazy about you, don't die without me, my love, don't catch the autumn Sometimes, for my absence, heave a sigh, my flower Sometimes stay awake till morning with the thought of me Sometimes, for my absence, ache with longing, like me With the sweet scent of your breath, say a poem for me The clear dew from the spring of your eyes, your cheeks full of longing are peace to me, rain, don't fall My love, don't leave me alone You and I were children in the old, aging garden There's nothing new in this season, the season of all-consuming autumn Not tree, not leaf, not root, in love with stone and with forever My fascinating flower, don't bend to the law of forever The famine of breath has driven me mad, from the pain of staying caged The fascinating ring of your laughter, a newly ripened fruit No one's heart will ever ache for our garden, my flower The bonds of my loneliness will never rot away without your scent, my flower