Doctor

Tracks

1. 1

   There Is Nothing

   4:27
   Lyrics

   There's nothing I want to say, nowhere I want to go No one I want to come, I'm ready to leave Nothing I want to touch, no taste I want to taste No smell I want to smell, no pain I want to bear Nowhere I want to stay, no border to cross No right I want to claim, no share of being to take No road I haven't walked, no color I haven't seen No desire to be the winner, no way I haven't been No word I want to hear, no secret I want to know Nothing to think about, enough, I don't want to stay anymore No longing to arrive, nothing to have No feeling left to feel, no wish to plant There's nothing to gain, nothing I want to lose Nothing I want to crush, nothing to build again No strength for this captivity, no patience of the old-age kind No point to start from, no place where you get to end

2. 2

   Dark

   5:37
   Lyrics

   Dark but calm, sometimes a distant sound Dark but not unsafe, sometimes a flicker of light Dark but certain, sometimes a deep truth Dark but free, stateless like snow Dark but not limbo, happy like paradise Dark but beautiful, not ugly like the light Dark but dark Dark but close to every corner of being Dark but not alone, I feel that you're here Dark but eager, like a restless kiss Dark but clear, like a spring of snowmelt Dark but tame, like the smell of damp earth Dark but together, a pure dance, body to body Dark like nothing else, peerless like death Dark but grieving the fall of every leaf Dark but alas, you're not in my arms Dark but alas, for this wet bed of mine

3. 3

   Book

   5:44
   Lyrics

   All the words you never said want you to collapse sooner all the moments you sat in silence are waiting to see you broken All those books in the corner of that house, full of cheap, worthless talk so many answers to one question, who knows the ache in your heart Open your eyes, this is the world, paradise is somewhere far from here the world is cruelty through and through, and man's lot is forever to be at someone's mercy All these clothes, all these masks, you're nothing but clay and water if you've been awake a whole lifetime, just for a moment, sleep beside me White book, black book what do they know of the war between fog and moon Welcome to the hollow civilization the civilization of natives who leave too soon Welcome to the civilization of death the civilization of leafless stems civilization of fear, civilization of evil mankind's oldest invention Welcome, newborn of the book wake up, friend, you've been asleep a lifetime When your heart and mine sleep on benches at night when every year the unsaid is what sets a book's price when, with a lump in your throat full of words, you sleep night beside night it's getting late, damn it, you're a dozen books yourself

4. 4

   Red Line

   5:25
   Lyrics

   With my eyes shut tight you left me in this city for a lifetime you got me used to drinking this poison I stepped past your forbidden red line but I never once coveted your never-paradise You raged at me, I tasted something hard you wrote the cruelty and I bore it like a man I can't take my eyes off whatever you called ugly I never set foot where you said was paradise You wrote stories and I read every story a hundred times you closed my eyes and I stayed inside those dreams You tore out the last pages of the book and I asked you said they didn't matter, I saw the ending in your eyes You taught me that in being you never have an end this line is only red until you set foot across it

5. 5

   Miss Your Face

   5:06
   Lyrics

   I miss your face, there's a smell of damp however I live, something's still missing If instead of dry earth they'd poured wet water over you you could have seen how they'd torn me apart I miss the smell of your body, close your eyes wherever you are in the sky, think of me, laugh for me Stay in my dream, don't give memory up to forgetting I fall asleep longing for you, don't give my world up to darkness I'm doomed to exist in the city of would-be people I knelt on your grave among the throngs of paper scraps the peace of my soul became prey at the feast of the lover-eaters in the end it will drive me mad, cast out even by the outcasts

6. 6

   DR

   6:01
   Lyrics

   Doctor, last night I was a good patient again I took all the pills, I turned into a wooden man Doctor, why doesn't a doll ever get sad now and then Doctor, give me some medicine, doctor, show me a way Doctor, last night I had a fever, I think I said some things in the morning someone asked me what happened to my other half I think I must have fallen off a ship into the water I feel like I must be standing on the body of a whale I think I must have grown used to the smell of the sea in the belly of the whale I must have wished for death I think I must have forgotten something I feel like somewhere, some day, I must have died Doctor, take me out of here here's this money, buy my life Doctor, the fish don't know I'm not a fish, I can't Doctor, this prescription you gave me Doctor, don't tell me everything's normal Doctor, tell me what's wrong with me, why my mind is empty I don't feel anything, don't tell me that's great

7. 7

   Glassy Guard

   4:47
   Lyrics

   You've spun a warp and weft out of glassy cocoons imprisoned in a cocoon's space, far from rooted life I breathed and easily forgot you live on the restless, unsafe body of the wind Taste of glass, bloody lips, poison of repetition kisses from behind glass, a mournful sigh how long will you play at kissing with an old lie let go of the ease of this smooth road You've spun a warp and weft out of glassy cocoons metamorphosed in a cocoon's space, far from rooted life I stare at your image behind the glass, drunk blind to everything there is but your face I kissed you so much in dreams from far away that the dark house of dreams broke from the smell of light From the underground paradise to the box-office life you're the shared pain in the glassy cocoons You're my only poem that's empty of ugliness You're the only drop that is an ocean I'm the wind that rushes every way, every way You're the only drop I drink

8. 8

   Ordinary Person

   3:27
   Lyrics

   What are you going to teach me, is experience something you pay for where do they sell experience, where's the principle in that You talk like life is just four rules and whoever takes your class has it easy Ordinary person, give it up, you don't know anything more everything you say in these classes you've only read in books Ordinary person, stop it, don't sneer at me with your look no, I'm not some storybook doll that can't see, can't understand If they ask you why your place isn't up there at the top you say it was my own choice, there's no place better than here You named yourself Mister, that's just how the lot fell for you if life is what teaches people, what's your job here, forget it, professor Ordinary person, wait, don't start lecturing read by seeing, yeah, a few sentences got left out

9. 9

   Doctor (New Edition)

   6:06
   Lyrics

   Doctor, last night I was a good patient again I took all the pills, I turned into a wooden man Doctor, why doesn't a doll ever get sad now and then Doctor, give me some medicine, doctor, show me a way Doctor, last night I had a fever, I think I said some things in the morning someone asked me what happened to my other half I think I must have fallen off a ship into the water I feel like I must be standing on the body of a whale I think I must have grown used to the smell of the sea in the belly of the whale I must have wished for death I think I must have forgotten something I feel like somewhere, some day, I must have died Doctor, take me out of here here's this money, buy my life Doctor, the fish don't know I'm not a fish, I can't Doctor, this prescription you gave me Doctor, don't tell me everything's normal Doctor, tell me what's wrong with me, why my mind is empty I don't feel anything, don't tell me that's great